The Adoption Update

I just wanted to update some of you who are interested on our adoption.  This has been a hard few months emotionally and financially.  I feel like we've waited so long (over 3 years now) since we decided we wanted to adopt.  I felt like we were at a point that we could start a home study.  It seemed like every time we scrounged some money to start we would need something else.  Expensive necessities.  Do you know what it feels like to have to spend that money on an unexpected expense?

**Now, I just want to stop here and say that any money that has been donated through our Chip In is tucked securely away.  It will ONLY be used for our adoption.  And a heartfelt thank you to those who have donated.**

But it just seems like a resounding WAIT from the Lord.  Is it His time?  I don't know.  Why does it seem like the money we try and save has to be used?  Would it be better to use that money or our credit card?  I feel like the Lord would not want us in debt and He allows these things to come about.  So I remember the saying that our timing is not God's timing.  My heart needs to rest and wait until He opens a door.  The scary thing is that His door might not be a door I want to walk through.  Perhaps that is why He is asking us to wait.  Because He needs more time to mold our hearts to His will.  I know that there are options running through my head that I have painfully avoided in the past.  Options like Foster Care.  I have always said I would never do foster care.  Notice that word NEVER.  That's always a pretty good indication that someday it will happen.  Will we do foster care?  I don't know.  If that is the only way God will bring me more children and if it's the only way we can help the orphan, then I guess we will.

Please pray for us.  Our hearts are so open to hurting children that it is confusing as to why we are just sitting here.  We need wisdom and lots of it.